My Light At The End Of The Tunnel

Has been taken away and I can not survive without him!

 Yesterday I was the happiest girl in the world getting ready to celebrate a month of love.

My world came crashing down at 11:30pm yesterday when they called us from Mexico and told us

my granddaddy Trini had passed away. 

He was my heart, my love and my everything.

I screamed and I cried!

The rest I've had to hold in because I've had to be strong for my pappa and Miguelito.

We've cried as a family and consoled each other.

Miguelito won't stop crying and he keeps asking me why? 

I have no answer because I keep asking myself the same thing. 

I am not ready to let him go, I do not want to accept that I will 

not see him again, hear his voice, or touch his hard working hand and give him kisses.

It feels like a nightmare and it breaks my heart to see my pappa so heartbroken, to see him crying

because he has lost his pappa. The person who gave him life, who worked hard for him, his hero

has passed away. His worst nightmare has come true and there is nothing I can

do to help him feel better or to console his broken heart.

They say that life goes on, and yes it does but things will never

be the same. Our heart will have a void that will never be filled again. 

An emptiness and sadness will be left behind.

Now all we have left are memories and pictures to help us remember the good times
and the love that we shared.

It's only been a day and I feel like it's the end of the world, they say things will get better, but what

I really want is to see you again.

It's moments like these in which I wish I could freeze time.

And just live in the present day forever.

I hate to think of the day in which I will have to face my worst nightmare,

it makes me cry and feel so scared.

I will never be ready to face my worst nightmare.

The out pour of love and support that I've received have meant the world to me.

Thank you from the bottom of our hearts for all your prayers before and after.

Love,

Kary xoxo

The last time I saw my granddaddy Trini - Summer 2010